aching needs

as much as i try to ignore.. my body aches for physical intimacy.. i need to feel wanted.. desired.. cherished.. i long to feel a strong arm around me.. a warm body.. a sweet but sensual kiss.. but i look at my husband and its like ive been doused with ice cold water. i couldnt surrender my body to him anymore.i couldnt let go of myself to embrace him.its like hes covered with thorn all over his body..like a cactus.